Thinking of the way I felt, walking out of your apartment Could not have been that far from hell Not far from where I started No rush and no relief, no picture of the future I went to running class Thought \"what the fuck did I do to her?\" Oh my god I’m turning sober, all the drugs I thought I loved Reminding me of last October, and the break that almost was I held myself accountable for all of my misgivings This mountain insurmountable, no hope found by Thanksgiving How did you know when I left there, I would end up worse How did you know when I ran scared, I’d walk to my hearse How did it get this way for me, it’s just so surprising The weight isn’t off of me, time for some exercising I tried to make it up, everything that I was feeling Scary head and scary eyes, can't word what I am dealing With everything I put you through And the words that I have written You gotta be a god damn fool To tell me I make you smitten How did you know when I left there, I would end up worse How did you know when I ran scared, I’d walk to my hearse How did it get this way for me, it’s just so surprising The weight isn’t off of me, time for some exercising